I'm sorry - I admit I did not read all of your post -
But I will say regarding the title of your POST

is "WHAT DEPRESSION STOLE FROM ME"

my answer and personal experience : YOU LIFE

THERE is ALWAYS a BUT....

Depression to me is a zombie state of mind and body.

It is so difficult, but you already KNOW it.

One MOMENT at a time is all I can suggest....
One MOMENT at a time is all I can DO...
I just wanted to share this with you

Please contact me anytime you like.........always here, always want to do the best I can, and with the most caring suggestions - Or just be an EAR