I had a boyfriend who visited me few weeks ago. when he was here, i had an instinct feeling that he was hiding something to me, i mean other girl. He was stil sweet to me, but his actions speaks louder than words that he really has new one. i just kept silent coz i want its him who wil tell me about this. when he went back to his homeland, he told me sorry he was not ready to get married, so i was shocked, i wasnt ready to accept the truth that my instinct came right. i told him he hurts my feelings. and i really love him very much. i was very nice to him , he was even given me the genital herpes that makes my whole life change coz now when he told me he was not ready getting married i was worried and hurt why he left me after all of this. i asked him why whats wrong with me, he said he was looking someone he wil be happy , he was afraid he might get bored with me coz im silent. but beforehand i told him already i was silent type but not really, especially i am not really that fluent in english. his reason for meisnt valid coz if he was afraid he might get bored, why he stil visitng me many times and he didnt drop me the first time he met me or even the nxt visits. it really hurt me a lot coz i wasnt ready and i love him so much. he said he wil not marry me coz of guilt feeling the herpes thing. i told him, its hard for me to get married and thats my dream in life get married have a happy family of my own coz i didnt experience living in a family. i grew up with no family coz relationship of our family isnt good. he said he dnt care and its a lifetime martyrdom for him if he wil marry me coz of herpes, but for me why he did it to me, he told me he have it after sex. he didnt even use condom before sex with me he only know he has it. i was really depresed this time, i ended our relationship today coz he didnt answer my call and txt anymore. he has many reasons. and there he said he dnt fel like marrying me, so hurting in my part.
now, im trying to forget him but its so hard. i wanna go back him but he dnt want me anymore. he said he wil nver marry me and not wanted to continue gf and bf. its so hard to accept and forget. i really love him. but he has already new one. imagine he found someone right away.were 1 year bf and gf and that very quick he already has someone..how come?
how can i overcome this feeling. im so hopeless and depress. how can i forget him i love him so much.
hopre to hear your advice!...im struggling hard.its not easy for me.
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