(((((((((((Zen))))))))))
I hear your sorrow loud and clear. Your suffering is real and justified. I am so sorry you feel this way that you have to live under these circumstances.
I applaud you on your strength and determination. You probably don't see that in yourself, but I do.
Maybe a volunteer job would be a better place to start? It might be easier to get hired and a way to meet friends.
I think you should keep up with your hobbies and re-enroll in your pottery class--it may be a good place to meet friends.
Counting things in your apartment that are a certain color. Thinking of countries with the same beginning letter. Saying the alphabet backwards. All are grounding techniques.
Are you on a waiting list for a therapist?
A lot of private therapists work on a sliding scale for low income people. You might start looking in the private practice therapy practices.
I think under the circumstances you are doing great.
Continue to Take Care
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I love your faults because they are part of you and I love you. --my BFF
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