I'm just done. I really don't want to go into details but long story short I told my boyfriend today that it's not going to work out. When I go to grad school it's done for good. I'm not going to kick him out or anything because I couldn't do that to him but my heart is pretty much done with this relationship. And the worst part is that he says he still wants to be with me and when I ask why he says "cause I love you" which, I'm sorry, but that's just not good enough. I cannot stand that every time I ask why he is still in this or why he still likes me when we are at each other's throats I get "cause I still love you". I'm so fed up right now that I just don't even care anymore. This relationship is done. I can't deal with this stuff anymore.

I come home and cook dinner, then bring it out and clean it up while he sits on his *** watching sportscenter. Sorry I'm probably not even making sense right now I'm just rambling. I can't even put my thoughts into words right now because I'm so fed up with this thing that passes for a relationship.