   Hi, (((((tmac87))))). I agree with yo_grandma52 - you are acting in the best interest of your daughter - and this is in your best interest, too. You have your hands full dealing with your issues, and caring for a baby would increase your stress a thousandfold which would be bad for you both. As for what are or are not "normal" feelings - you feel what you feel. Some medications affect me the same way, and other medications make me absolutely "manic." You should discuss with your doctor how the Valium is affecting your emotions - perhaps there are other medications available that would help your depression without the negative "numbing" side effect. Also, if you have been taking the Valium for a while, be very careful about skipping doses or stopping it suddenly - it can have a real backlash effect. Let your doctor determine how to taper off the Valium, if necessary. Don't beat up on yourself for getting pregnant - it happened and you have made appropriate provisions for your daughter. Now, it's time to take what you have learned from the experience and move forward with your treatment and life. Please let us know how you are doing.
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