Hi Guys and Gals,

I just stumbled upon this website through a search engine.

My names Chris, I am 24 years old and have owned my own business for the last two years. I make good money, have a nice home, nice cars, I am regulary told by many women that I am very attractive and I easily pick up several women a week.

Here's my issue and I don't know how to resolve it. I married my High School sweetheart. We met both young and had the immature love/lust. It did finally grow into an adult love and I was 100% in love and fully supported her. End of January she left me for a so-called-friend out of the blue. Claiming she wasn't happy, etc. It crushed me, I felt like I failed as a man, failed as a husband. The woman I thought was going to be the mother of my children had commited adultery, abandoned and deserted me.

I delt with it. Took me a few months to get to the point that I could go out and not get tears in my eyes. For months and months and months all I wanted was for her to come home to me. For once I was willing to be second best to another man.

In the mean time I have been doing my own thing. Every single friend of mine now calls me a "man*****", "player". On average, I sleep with 5-6 girls a month.

Out of all of the women over the last 8 months. I found myself to have feelings for only two. All of the others meant absolutely nothing to me. Both of these two women were head over heals for me. I saw potential in both of them as far as future possibilities. I briefly courted each one and both times I did the same thing.

I pulled away, I broke contact. They don't understand why I did it. Niether do I. I feel like I am scared to be hurt again, scared to be crushed again. As soon as I get comfortable with one, and we start talking. All I would do was clam up and make a quick exit.

Now there's one more problem I have. My soon-to-be Ex-Wife has been calling me and coming over not invited to talk to me. I have gone out with her a few times to see if anything was still there on my end. I will always love her, but she destroyed my trust in her. Without trust there is nothing. She wants to get back with me, says she sorry, says she knows it was wrong. Has tried to get me to sleep with her, which I have been able to back away from even though I shared a drunken kiss with her one night. I went and saw my lawyer and he drafted up the Divorce papers and I took them to her last week. She looked absolutely crushed but she will never understand the pain she caused me.

Lost in my ways, All I want to be able to do is open up to another woman and not run away.

-Chris