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Originally Posted by BlueMoon6
Elysium- you said you are scared also to lose this coping mechanism. What would you replace it with ? It is something I have done forever. It feels very comfortable. I feel very protected and safe when I can "go" even if I dont really know at that moment that I go.
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(((((((((((moon!)))))))))))))
My hope is that I won't *need* to replace it. That through the work I am doing in therapy, the triggers will be reduced, and my ability to deal with them and stay grounded and present will improve, and I won't HAVE to "leave" anymore....
Try not to put too much pressure on yourself about therapy. It took me over 18 months to even BEGIN talking about the really hard stuff, but there was still a LOT of healing happening during that time. A lot. When it is time, you will be ready. Until then, there is still important work being done. Most of the important work in therapy for me has been done around the therapy relationship, and we were working on that from day one.
My guess is it won't take you 18 months to be able to open up...you have already been working hard with a therapist for a while. It was my first time ever in therapy, so it was a really slow process for me. But even if it DOES take 18 months (or more!) its really, really okay
to you!