I posted that earlier and, for some reason, I felt so so SO much better after posting it. I had dinner, not real big, but a meal. I felt physically better and I suspect it was from posting. I am not sure how or why I could have dinner and not pick at wierd food, but I ate dinner with my family. I feel slightly off, like I shouldnt have done it, but now I feel like its OK and I will just let it go. It does seem like if I get some good therapy with ftt, my food could really improve.