hangingon and Blue... thank you! I think, as rough as this week has been for me, that it really has taken T's and my relationship to another level. I trusted her at the beginning of the week when we did the EMDR, but I really put major trust in her on Wednesday when she wanted to again do the EMDR, since that was (in my mind, at least) what had stirred up those horrible feelings in me. And I also told T some really painful thoughts, and she held those thoughts for me and helped me feel that it was all going to be okay. I wish everyone would have a T like my T! I'm excited now to continue this work with T, even though I know it's not all going to be easy. But now that I know, without any doubt, that T will always be there for me (as well as you all, and my friends that have really propped me up this week) - I know that I can continue down this road of healing. I'm not sure how long the road is, but I don't think that matters so much to me right now - it's who is along with me on the journey, no matter how hilly or bumpy the road gets, that counts!