I agree with what others have said -- you have been nothing BUT responsible about this pregnancy. You have put your daughter FIRST, before your own personal, emotional and medical needs. You are SO BRAVE!!!

Talk to your doctor about the valium, make sure he/she knows how numb it's making you and ask if that's going to last or if there are alternative meds you might take to stabilize your mood. It might also be a good idea -- if you're not doing it already -- to think about therapy. It might be good for you to talk to someone about how you're feeling -- about yourself, about your pregnancy, about your daughter and about the adoption. Remember that YOU HAVE NOTHING TO BE ASHAMED OF. You have been a WONDERFUL mother to that little girl and she is going to have an AMAZING life all because of the decisions YOU made.

Sending lots of hugs to help you through.