Mom and I were talking today, and a disturbing topic came up. I'll be honest, things are not going too well financially right now. So we were talking and she said if things keep going the way they are, I might have to stop seeing T.

This scares me so much, because I'm doing so much better now that I've started seeing her, and I don't want that progress to reverse itself, not to mention bring more problems because of termination. I'm scared this day really will come too soon, and I'm not ready for it at all.

Even I'm struggling to find a job at the moment...I would pay for my own T if I could find a job to pay for it. I'm just so scared right now about the possibility of me not being able to see T anymore.