Honestly, just by showing up for therapy the first time. Right away, there you are, with another person, beginning this journey together. After that, it's been by being honest about what I'm feeling about him, and about the relationship, even if it's hard.

About 2 months into therapy, I had a HORRIBLE session. T and I were totally missing each other, he wasn't hearing me and was making everything worse, and I thought he was being awful on purpose so I would leave and never come back. It was a Friday and I cried ALL weekend. It was awful. When I saw him on Monday, I was totally honest about how I felt about what happened. He totally listened, owned his part in it, and really sincerely apologized. He said that he should just shut down his practice because he had been so awful lol The appointment was a BIG DEAL and, looking back, it felt like when therapy really started for me. And T's receptiveness to what I said to him made me feel like I could always bring things up - even little things - about the relationship, and I have.

As for not remembering your childhood...you can just talk about not remembering it. And talk about the things you DO remember. Just start where you are...that's all you have to do.

(((((((((((((((Moon)))))))))))))) I know it's hard to not worry, but things really will fall into place. You picked a T that is experienced and good, and she will help you through this.