I know. I fall for it every time. I told him that I have changed a lot, not because my actions made him angry, but because I didn't like those qualities about myself. I asked him if he felt the things I mention are truly bad qualities and he always says yes and he doesn't like being that way. He even said a few months ago that he is tired of ruining relationships from his actions but then does them over and over.

That's interesting mentioning his mom. His mom does EVERYTHING around the house. His dad gets mad at her for buying junk food (he is overweight) but then eats it anyways. She cooks dinner, brings it out and does the dishes. She will even do his laundry for him when he goes to visit. Granted, I take my laundry home too, but I do it myself with my own detergent. She still pays for his cell phone and car insurance and, I'm sorry, but at 26 that seems a little rediculous. He is almost finished with his masters and prides himself on being so independent but at the same time, his mother still pays for half his bills.

It just doesn't seem like he has any empathy for anyone, not even me. And that's a big thing for me. I have enough for about 30 people (a.k.a. I'm a sucker) and I try to see the best in everyone but he is one of those people where something is okay for him but not for other people. He complains when students cross in the middle of the street but I just saw him do it yesterday. He gets mad when people don't accelerate fast enough for him but takes his time if he is in the front of the line. I just don't get it.

It does really seem like a problem with self-awareness. I'm starting to see more signs of narcissism which I know isn't easy to deal with. And considering I'm very neurotic, it makes me even worse. Because, not only does he put the blame on everyone but himself, I automatically think everything is my fault so I have to sit there and tell myself " no, you are valid for feeling this way. this is not your fault" which is really hard for me to do. I almost always feel like I'm, in some way, at fault for his actions.

We have been good today, no fighting yet. We'll see how the rest of the night goes. Thanks again to everyone. You guys have helped me out so much.