Ahhh, but knowing how I feel IN THE MOMENT really isn't something I'm good at, at all. I have always tended to dissociate, or at the very least kind of zone out, and really have no way of knowing what I feel in the moment. Like, in the incident I told you about, on that Friday early in therapy, I just "left" for most of the session. It took a lot of slow-motion processing over the weekend to figure out what I was feeling,and then I wrote it all down over and over again, and THEN I was able to bring it to him on the following Monday. That's how it went for a LONG time.

I am slowly beginning to recognize my feelings DURING session, and that is a huge step forward. HUGE. And sometimes I am able to be present enough to feel them AND express them right then. (Sometimes!) It took a long time and a lot of practice. The thing is, even if you don't realize what you are feeling until later, it's still okay to bring it up.

Moon, if this is a good therapist, she will be willing and able to hear what your thoughts and feelings are about ANYTHING, including your relationship.