Can't say much at the moment. Woke up feeling "ok". Took a short walk. Came back. Had 2 cups of coffee. My anxiety is throught the roof right now. I have to force myself to breath, throat feels weird (tight...thickened). Oh how I hate this. Just took a 1/2 of a Lorazepam. the worst part is not know if the anxiety is caused by some disease, alchohol, withdrawl from alcohol, benzo withdrawl, coffee or a combination of these things. I feel like this very elderly guy I used to know named Arther. He was always quaking and shaking and very nervous. If you got him upset he'd start quivering and jerking around so bad he could hardly speak. that's about how I feel right now. Oh well, I guess I'm saddled with this beast for life so I'll just have to deal with it until the day I die (just like a cancer patient, diabetic, MS sufferer, etc). Today is DEFINATELY a no-beer day, that's for sure!.

Thank's for listening and for all the thoughtful and kind replies - GreyGoose