GG - Anxiety is a VERY treatable disorder ! You have posted that you have seen many Doctors, tried therapy, been on a variety of medications, are an alcoholic, but what is it exactly that you are doing to help yourself get better? (Sorry if that sounds blunt). IF you truly want to get better, everyone here has offered you help, hope, told you what has helped many of us recover from severe anxiety/panic disorder, etc. When you and I have "talked" , I told you there are some people who really want to do the WORK to get better, and there are those hoping for a "magic cure". WHEN you find that "magic cure" be sure and bottle it - cause it will make you very rich !

I have absolutely NO clue what is making your finger itch. Do you honestly think that an itchy finger is worth worrying about?

Also - whats with 2 cups of coffee (unless you have changed to decaf) ??? Liquid anxiety poured on purpose down your throat, only to then need a pill to help reverse it's actions on your system. Where is the logic in that?

Anxiety is anxiety. I don't think it is caused by a disease (medical). It is a physical/mental disorder. Once we accept it for what it is, we then tend to start working to get better. I dont think you have accepted this yet. To think this is anywhere NEAR being the same as having cancer is so irrational - which of course, irrational thinking "STINKIN THINKIN" is part of anxiety. IF you live with this (anxiety) until you die, it was a choice.