Thank you all for your replies. I am having such a hard weekend. I feel so empty and alone. All I have to keep me company is my homework, and that just doesn't make me feel any better. I just want to curl up in a ball. I haven't felt this bad in a long time. I don't know where it is coming from. With my new T who I don't really trust yet, it leaves me with no one to talk to. And I don't want to bother the few people who I do know by calling them. Even though I know that I don't do this it seems like I only call them when I feel bad. Which in the end always makes me pretend to feel fine when I call them. But I still can't get myself to tell them anything. I'm afraid that they will be like "enough is enough" you are too hard of a friend. It's not like they call me every as it is. Why does it always have to be me? I feel so alone. I really don't see what the point of all this work is. It's not like it ever really gets better. No matter how hard I try. I always end up in the same place. Empty and alone.