And that is why you don't have to do ANYTHING just yet. You've canceled your upcoming appointments with desk T, you have an appointment scheduled wtih ftt - can you just let things flow, and not force yourself to do anything right now? Everything is fine how it is right at this moment. Once you start with ftt, how you want to handle desk t will probably become more clear to you.

I had a teacher T last winter (for meditation) and it ended BADly. ack. Even my T was involved. BLAH! Anyhow, I talked to my T about it a lot and was 99% positive I didn't want to work with teacher T anymore. He really wanted me to have one last session with her for closure, but I wasn't sure I wanted to. And I thought about writing a letter, but couldn't bring myself to do it. Somehow, I just couldn't close that door. Finally, time went by, and she kind of faded from my thoughts, and the whole thing was just OVER without me doing ANYTHING. And I feel fine about it now- when I think about it, I don't feel like there are loose ends, or like there's no closure. I just moved on.

Can you not worry right now about how (or even if) you will end it with desk T? I think things will start to fall into place when your sessions with ftt finally start. I wish your session could have been THIS week!

Remember...you're supposed to be baking cookies and listening to music this week!