Do you guys out there think that dissociation can be developed by the following?Among other things, of course.
Firstly, I am very thankful for the wonderful, caring parents I have. I can't work and I live with them. My mom is my best friend. But now this: she is very perfectionistic. Personal appearance is very important to her. She is a beautiful woman. Since I was a child, I always felt like I was in her shadow. She cares a lot about what other people thinks. This made me an anxious child. When I was 13, I became rebelious. I made friends with the prettiest girl in my class. I have to say I'm attractive myself. But when I was 13, I wasn't sexually mature yet and looked very young. I became involved in the usual sex, drugs and rock and roll culture at an age that was too young for me personally. I felt I had to keep up with my friend. I started becoming obsessed with looking in mirrors to see if I measure up. Though I looked good, I still looked like a child. My friend looked older. Today, still looking young, although I'm 39, I can't stand mirrors. I don't see the right picture. My face feel detached from my body and I suffer a lot from agoraphobia and shyness. I wish I hadn't grown up so early in life. I don't blame her, because I love her, but do you guys also think my mother and friend played a role in my developing dissociation?