Hi borderkallie

Like others here I am concerned about the hormone thing...so I hope you will talk to your prescribing physician about that. As for the gender thing, I am also a female who wears only men's clothing. Partly it is about physical comfort, partly about feeling safer in the world and in my own skin when I do so. I had a therapist once who asked me to think about what gender various aspects of myself might be. I came up with the fact that my intellect 'feels' male. My heart 'feels' female. My essence is genderless. My way of interacting with others is a mix of both, depending on circumstances, but I am usually more comfortable being one of the guys than one of the gals. I get very angry, in a way that I don't otherwise do, when faced with the prospect of having to do 'girly' things like spa evenings. So I have some issues to look at still, but I am actually quite happy not to be stuck at either end of the gender spectrum, since I have a versatility that makes me quite useful to others (and pretty self-sufficient). I can change your tire or fix your kitchen sink one day and cook you a lovely meal the next. I work days as a housepainter and nights as overnight staff in a women's boarding house. I think the fact is that most of what our society says is gendered is only that way because of long years of tradition and habit. We are who we are...and although I have been single for a while, it is not because nobody likes or wants me, but that I am not looking right now. I have been loved as I am at least once...and it may well happen again sometime!

Nothing crazy about you!!