LightningStruck...

Welcome. I'm only here now and again. But, I relate to your story somewhat. I'm recently divorced after nearly 25 years. My ex was a playa at the end.

Are you afraid of being emotionally involved witho someone now? Take your time. You want something very special, it will happen in the right time. You seem to be afraid to let go of your past maybe... afraid to become attached to someone again.

Your ex may be truly sorry. It takes time to reestablish trust and to look through the issues that caused her infidelity.