OK....husband has been in and out of hospital a few times since january. with Diabetes related issues. Cant seem to get his numbers down, then the go waaaay down......blah......He almost died last time.....scaredme to death

I got a side job out of town working on pcs....in N. Carolina...its nice. pays good. and they fly me out there. (every like two weeks for a weekend) cant help but feeling burnt out. I am grateful, as my husband hasnt been paid for time off, this supplements our income a bit, and i know bills will be paid. I am however, as much as i like working, feeling overtired, stressed....and almost as if im coming down with something.

Mom is settled in her new place for the most part, but is also having issues with memory loss, they believe its because of the pain pills shes on for chronic pain. So thats been on my mind.

Meanwhile, my puppy of 10 years, is steadily going downhill. and it scares me. Ive been having panic attacks too big to mention daily now for the last two weeks. (and nightly, to make matters worse) at the time You cant tell me different, as it feels like my breathing will cease.

I feel bad because ive tried so hard to get my side business going. and its going well, and because others are out of a job, I feel guilty saying I need a break...Im tired.

But I am. Ive always known how to just keep going. Maybe thats changing because i feel like i need a day of total sleep.

Thanks for letting me vent....even if its about nothing.

C