As some of you know I started a new job a while back.

I don't want to sound like I am bragging, this post isn't meant to be. It's just so shocking.

Also I must explain for those who don't know, I recently lost my T of six years. He died suddenly and he meant everything to me.

Anyway, I got my first pay check last month which was very nice to look at. But I got my second pay check going in the bank tomorrow. I thought I would ring the bank to find out how much is going into the bank. This month's pay has all the enhancements on it for the long hours I do and the extra work I have taken on board.

Well, I was so shocked! I have never seen this sort of money in all my life! And to think I will be getting this every month from now on! Just wow! If you knew where I'd come from you'd understand better, heck it's totally unreal.

I'm really not bragging, not trying to make anyone feel bad, just sharing good stuff that I never knew I could achieve. I'm going to rush out to the shops and buy my children a TV each and clothes and stuff we have never been able to afford. Is this really happening to me and my family? Someone pinch me! lol!

And there are tears, tears of sadness that my T never saw this. He never knew. He doesn't know because he isn't here anymore. He's with me but not if you see what I mean. T! Look!

Thanks for reading this ramble!