thank you everyone for your replies.

I did want to add that they are not going to a shelter - if I am forced to get rid of them they would go to a family who my boyfriend and I would screen personally as best we could under the condition they would never go to a shelter.

I agree yes, I am important but I do want to consider they cats needs not to mention my bf's emotional attatchment to them.

I need to read your replies all over again and think on this one, it's been tough.

Thank you all for being so unbelievably understanding , I can't express how much this means to me