But why do I worry myself to the point I feel physically and mentally ill by just thinking about having to get a criminal record check and child welfare check? As I have stated before I have never been arrested or convicted of any crime nor have I abused any children.

Could it be because I was abused as a child that I am hyper sensitive/paranoid about getting my records checked? Could it be because my dad was never held accountable for his abusive actions towards me?

I try over and over again to remind myself that I am not a criminal nor am I a child abuser.

I haven't worked in childcare for 3 years now. I did have to file accident reports when a child would hurt themselves...etc. And if anything came into question I would think by now that the police or social services would have contacted me? See this is how my OCD thinking or stress affects my logical and intelligent reasoning skills.