How do I get a life? How do I stop feeling so freaking lonely and desparate for affection? How do I stop being so paranoid about life and ppl? How do I stop worrying myself sick about my health...I tend to think I have a new disease or disorder every other week?

Hello, My name is Robin. I am 43 years old. I feel about 2o something LOL however i live in this 43 year old body. I just joined this site. its very interesting to say the least. We all have things that are just not exactly perfect but we have something to work with. I took a few of the test on here and i sky rocketed the charts..... add and bipolar totally depressed and have some ocd.........without medications.........so far....and i drive myself and my family crazy. I think in this life its all a learning lesson....sometimes we are just not prepared for the test. I am a very positive individual regardless of the things i go through and have been through. I see things differently then a few.... yet less than most....lol I gotta laugh sorry.........im funny to boot........or try to be ..........I have my down times too where i totally withdraw from everyone so i can gather my senses again. I have a son who is 24. He was diagnoised with addh in 2nd grade............he out grew his and i never did do anything about my problems......howeve i was always to busy with so much **** in my life i never noticed my conditions until the last 5-6 years.....how i have changed is amazing in itself. All things takes times...........and change in our lives comes when we get so sick of seeing the bottom of things ........and make a change within ourselves to make things happen in our lives. What matters in life............Knowing you are loved regardless of who we are. We all need and want love. Without that human touch........we become like a hermit.... Life is so much worth living and enjoying i say Live, love and laugh often for those are the things we all miss in our lives....... Never feel you are alone.........theres a big world out there and there are alot of good people in it who care. I feel it all starts with in our thinking process..........its like ok.....lets get the delete button working on all the **** weve been processed over the years that doesnt work. LOL its time for a reorganization of thoughts..........and you will be surprised the changes YOU can make in yourself with some support.... MY life ive kept a big secrete and afraid to talk about but i have realized we all go through it........and the more we share and talk about things....with people who care We get a new perspective on the way we look at things............I never liked to read and i read and read.......and talk and talk finding the answers i need to be happy and carefree............ another way i look at things is we come in this world naked and we will leave it naked........Hopefully with clothes on our bodies if we are fortunate to live a ripe old age...........lol neways the idea we need to live today like its our last day.........dont live in the past.......dont live to far in the future but live right here right now.......... do somethng today for someone else.........Sometimes thats all it takes is a smile from a complete stranger and yet it could wake you or me up..........i have had that done many times right at the time i needed it............there it was............ We are the ones who make a difference the ones who pulls our boots by the boot straps and pick ourselves up and just start living. We only have One life to live and i tell you the secretes is how we talk to ourselves and the way we thnk......needs to change some............we are so programed the way someone else wanted us and God made us who we are with and with out problems.....the rain comes and goes.......then the sun shines...........we shall always have valleys and mountains to climb up and to know the cycles that we go through......ups and downs........and around turns and many storms Ihope i make sense........but neways Iknow we have the power within ourselves and with Gods help.........we can overcome any obsticle we face even right down to addh add bipolar ect ect......its all in knowledge and then applying it to our lives and our situations. I have felt exactly like you do........many times and yet i still keep thriving in life for .............im determind we can be happy right here right now............without anyone but yet we need and want. We are taught mans ways in life..........and we get let down.......we live carnially....for we are a carnally minded until we open up our spiritual side........we feel empty in this life.......i dont go to church ........its just a building but i do believe without a doubt theres a God and He is what and my whys of why i keep going and being positive and making better choices for myself. The choices we make today decitate our lives we live. Trust me wake up your spiritual side and it will help you overcome the depression and help you understand and see things differently...thats what alot of our problems we know something and then we think we are always right.......being closed minded and closed hearted towards people. We end up being our own worse night mare. Trust me,,, i felt the same things........and i opened up my mind and heart...........learned to live ..........forgive and be at peace at whatever state of mind i am in........You are never alone........and You have the power to do something about your situation.......We all do .....the very first thing is to always remember to breath, pray and believe.........after that God will help you as you help yourself...... and it always starts when we forget about ourselves in a sense and put someone else before our problems..........and it always comes back to you even more sometime than ten fold. Heres to you .....heres to me......Lets keep the Faith and Believe for it starts witin yourself. and then give it away for someone else to become strong.....and its a circle of friends and family.......striving to overcome this life and make it to Heaven..........i know life was intended to be that .......Heaven and we can live in peace without much............if we but understand how it all works. May God bless you and yours........and just start with a litle act of kindness ........perhaps with yourself and tell yourself YOU are someoe Special and God gave you breath and a life.......Make it worth living..........Live , Love and laugh often. with all my love, Ms. Robin ps...feel free to text Ms.Robin on this site. until then Have a beautiful day..........Breath, my favorite saying Pray, Breath, in knowing and believe. Pray, breath and Believe.