2 quick disclaimers:

One: I am a married mother of 2, 34 years old, raised in the Christian faith

Two: My post is my opinion only.

Ok, I can so stop yelling now...but I wanted to make those things clear.

For women, sex is closely related to emotions. It would be best if you were in a better place in your head before you start expermenting with sex with a partner. That said, self exploration is a good thing. It can help you figure out what you like and don't like. I did not wait to have sex. I remember my first time, it was the Halloween Blizzard of '91 (I was 16). The most memorable thing about that night, we got over 2 feet of snow! Your first time should be memorable, but for the experience and the intimacy with another person. It is better to be ok and love you before you get involved.

Also, this is not a race. I swear! My anti-depressants killed my sex drive for a long time. While it is getting better (I have been able to drop my anti-depressant dosage and started Adderall, a stimulant, for ADHD), my emotions and issues still hold me back from sex with my husband! So sex is just as much mental as physical.

Hang in there! I know it is hard, but keep trying. You will find what works to help your depression. It can be a long journey, one I was on from puberty until recently, but you CAN make it!