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Originally Posted by billi_leli
Last night I was with my husband.
He was so accepting of me!
Esp. a part of my sexuality that I have always rejected.
for a moment, I was able to accept it, too.
But today, I am back to rejecting it.
Because i woke up today with a vaginal itch.
I was able to take care of it with a vinegar douche, but I was struggling with anxiety about being bad again and was afraid that the itch was a supernatural being punishing me for sex last night and my husband accepting me and this part of me that i've rejected and still reject this minute.
I am sure ppl can relate to hangups around sex, pleasure, love, and religion.
Thank you.
B.
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My mom once told me that there was a book out in the 70s called "Sex Without Guilt", and that my Nana could have written "Guilt Without Sex"...
During puberty, when our ideas of sex are formed, we are told "DO NOT DO NOT DO NOT!!!!". Is it any wonder why our society is so obessed with sex, yet people feel guilty about having it?
Hon, you are married. What ever higher power you believe in has no problem with you having sex with your husband. Have you seen anyone about this? A gynocologist? Or a therapist? What you do with your husband is a natural and loving demonstration of what you feel for him. You don't need to feel guilty about it! I understand that you do, but change the tape in your head and tell yourself it is ok!
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Blessed are the cracked for they let in the light! They say I have A.D.D. but I think they are full off...
Oh look! A CHICKEN!
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