I feel like a freak! Ever since I was about 11 years old, I've been pulling out my hair (scalp), eyelashes and eyebrows. It's gotten so bad now, it's to the point where I have bald spots on my head and I have hardly any eyelashes left and no eyebrows. I am embarrassed to go out in public. I don't even know why I do it, all I know is that I feel like I NEED to do it... I like the release of tension that it gives when I pull out my hair. It's so hard to explain and my friends don't understand.. they try to be supportive but they don't understand why I do it. I've tried so many times to stop and I keep telling myself 'this is the last time I'll do it' but it keeps happening. I'm scared I'm going to need a wig soon. I'm too embarrassed to get my hair cut at the hairdresser anymore and I can't put my hair up in a ponytail because I've pulled out so many hairs in the front that they all stick up when I pull it back. I have to gel it down every day otherwise tons of little hairs will stick up on my head. I just feel like a freak and I don't know what to do.

Please help.