Dear Stefanuus ~ No, we cannot dx here, but it doesn't sound like nothing. I am not sure whether "blackout" during personality changes is a necessary symptom of DID or not. I am so very sorry about the abuse you have endured. Please see a pdoc if you possibly can. If you feel that you cannot afford this for some reason, look in the yellow pages under mental health and call listings, asking where you can get treatment or counseling for a sliding scale fee or pro bono. billieJ