thanks all for your replies....
i am taking one day at a time september....
i guess maybe i should let ya all know besides my depression i am dealing with my grandafther dying..along with my gram and our family caring for him at home...so many things..laid off from work..my daughter was hurt but doing better..and now i may be forced to move from my home....i wish the things being dealt to me were things my mind s creating but that its the case...maybe then it would be easier to deal with....seems latley just when my mind starts to clear im thrown another trun in the road..but i admit..i must have strength i dont realie cuz im stil going....i dont wanna complain...i guess i was just ranting cuz i need a break.....i do appreciate all the responds i have recived ..made feel better and a whole lot less alone....i dont know what id do without you all here ..thanks you all