Last week friday I git really drunk and depressed at the same time, now this is the first time this has eva happeded to me for when I usually get drunk I'm in a happy mood and I laugh alot and joke with all my friends but this time I was how you say not myself for the first time eva, and believe me I've gone out and gotten drunk just to drown all my sorrows and it neva worked because every time I got drunk I was actualy in a good mood once I was drunk, this is the first time for me and I was always telling people that when I'm drunk I'm always happy no matter what, I even phoned a friend of and explained to her all my problems and told how I felt and that I wanted to kill myself last week wendsday, she was very understanding about it and even said a few words that put a smile on face, which is rare these days, but that didn't change the fact that I got really depro and that worried me for what if it happens again.