Well not sure exactly what you may be going through just know that I was trying hard to stay away from drinking and made it over two weeks and then when drank agin I have much anger going on. Had one point where I was a happy drunk another I was depressed drunk and now seem to be a very angry drunk. You are not alone. I know drinking helps me to deal with feelings I have no clue as how to deal with them in real life. Sorry I have no sollution for you just want you to know you are not alone.
I'm not saying drinking is the answer for any thing just struggel with not being able to stay sober/straight.
lrks