Thanks to you both for the great advice. AAAAA, your advice especially helped me to see more about the situation. You seem very Intelligent.

I did know my boyfriend pretty well before he moved in. We did spend like 4 days together in person before he moved and we had a really wonderful connection. We also talked on the phone once a day and online everyday. We were friends for like 5 years and then started talking much more about a year ago. We have been dating for about 5 months now.

I know that i have problems with how i communicate, but the thing is I have no idea how to fix my problems. I'm in the dark here. I would at least like my boyfriend to try to be understanding and sensitive to my issues. I had a negative childhood for the most part and i don't think i ever learned how to communicate effectively. My boyfriend isn't the only one to misunderstand me at times. Many people seem to misunderstand when i try explaining things to them. Coming to this site has been an attempt to learn more and so far it's working.

I do regret brushing my boyfriend off this morning, but i needed some time to myself to think about things really. I feel like i'm headed for a major breakdown. When i am in a depressed mood, of course my opinions of people seem negative. Everything appears negative to me when i feel depressed. The problem is i think sometimes i feel confused about what i am feeling. I can't always recognize that i am feeling depressed. My brain doesn't always work that fast. I often realize things after they've already happened.

My boyfriend called me and we are talking again at least. I still think we need to talk about these issues more when the time is right. I will let him know how i am feeling.