 
Oh Rhap, I'm so glad your relationship is so good with your hubby. Thank you for understanding how I feel.
The gentleman that I'm interested in is, if anything more buff than he was in college. We don't see each other often and the last time he saw me he was shocked at the weight gain though he tried hard to hide it. That was just part of the weight gain. I don't know what he'll think of all of this. Of course, I do realize that if he walks away because of it, I'm better off without him. (Thank you Nancy the t and Dr. B, the p-doc for knocking that sense into me!) 
I don't feel like I have the right to be angry about this because things could be so much worse. They really could.
The diabetes comment really frightened me. My Dad had diabetes and so does my brother. I inherited my father's mental illnesses. I hoped so much that I could avoid the diabetes and I feel like I'm on an out of control train heading right for it.
I've been so triggered I haven't slept at all yet. That is never a good sign.
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