Purple,
You already have the strength. I spent over 20 years in an abusive marriage. I thought all the same things you mention in your post.

It is the conditioning your husband has used on you to believe you cannot do anything and that you can't live without him. It just isn't true! Once you make the move, the freedom will carry you along.

It will take some time before you relax and feel ok, but little by little you will, and your daughter will begin to relax too.

but the longer you drag it out, the more the fear and anxiety will strengthen its grip on you. Get out now while you can. Especially if you have everything organised and ready. Take a huge deep breath and walk proudly out of that door! Walk towards the life you want and away from the pain and hurt you're in now,

((((((((hugs))))))))
Rhiannon