Thank you so much for the support It means so much to me! I am a 22 year old female. I thought of lupus too and when doctors didnt help me at first I requested for an ANA blood test. It measures antibodies and tells me if i have an autoimmune disease like lupus. It came back negative. It is very hard to get a false negative on a test like that so Im pretty sure I dont have an autoimmune disease. I might check into seeing how we could manage if i took short term disability. I have been taking ensure and forcing myself to eat some ...so normally in a day i consume an ensure and a palmed size amount of pasta...im not gaining any weight but at this point im not loosing anymore..or so im thinking. Which as long as im not loosing anymore thats ok with me. My husband saw me with my shirt off and said he can see every bone in my body...attractive huh...Im really afraid i might have HIV or something. Being in the medical field it is quite possible i could be infected with it. Im really hoping it isnt though. I worry about my baby. Im a big girl I can handle whatever it is but i really hope whatever I have doesnt infect or hurt my son in any way. I will feel so guilty. I did end up in the ER because I couldnt take the pain and weight loss anymore. I was hoping they might admit me for hydrational purposes and find out whats wrong with me in the process..I was wrong...they just gave me another wrong diagnosis that was luckily found out by my sons pediatrician go figure...I know Im very dehydrated...my urine is red and orange with lots of floating things in it.(not to be gross of course lol). And my skin rebound rate is slower than a snail...Im trying to drink as much as I can...I told my doctor that If my liver and spleen are enlarged and I have protiens and possible infection in my urine and I have extreme stomach tenderness when its touched something is attacking my organs...of course this doesnt make her want to go any faster..i still have to wait three weeks to see her again...oh well at least she is taking some action. Thank you so much for all of your support again. It really is making life difficult not being able to do what i want and eat what i want and doctors not helping me. I did tell my husband that if they decide to do an ultrasound or a CT scan and find out i might need dialysis or my liver or spleen is shot I will be very angry. When they do decide to do a lymph node biopsy and find out its cancer..i will be very angry. Im trying to deal with my anger now but its so frusterating when you know something is very wrong with your body and just because your doctor cant find it in a physical exam...yea like if you touch my belly and there isnt a basketball sized tumor in my stomach then i must be ok. I am trying to deal with my anger now...but i said if i have something like HIV and my baby is comprised then watch out because my mother bear will be coming out and alot of doctors will probably have to call security after I show up and flip out on them. I think i need therapy just to deal with this lol...thats why I come here and ask for support from my friends. You all mean alot to me and your ideas and thoughts mean alot to me. You guys and my husband and baby help me keep battling this and trying to overcome this. Thanks again.