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Originally Posted by Pup
But to the person, it isn't meaningless, or they wouldn't do it. I'm just saying what can be meaningless to another isn't to another. It means SOMETHING, delusional or not, fake or not, it does mean something.
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I think most of the time it's both meaningless and meaningful. With me, I feel like I have to tap things for different reasons, but mostly to distract myself from thoughts. Like, I have a feeling that my brain's about to flood with terrible thoughts, and I go and tap something to distract/prevent it, or when I have a thought I go tap something to "get it out." But it's a totally meaningless action if I think about it. Tapping on a cabinet or a desk or a door or whatever, what is that? And it doesn't even really work. The thoughts come in as they please no matter what I do, but I have this feeling that if I didn't do compulsions things would get worse.. but the compulsions are really annoying but I still feel like I have to do these things. Ugh OCD is so weird.