Im sorry that your having such a rough time. Lupus must be very hard to deal with. I dont have lupus but im more than happy to lend an ear or shoulder to cry on if you need it. If you feel you are up to it maybe you could talk about how lupus affects your life maybe it would help to talk about it. I hope you are getting enough rest and taking care of yourself. Im inny btw...you can pm me anytime. If I may give you some gentle hugs here they are