Inky, it doesn't sound like you're really helping yourself taking OTC meds! What do you want from your T? Sounds like today was the first time you got to talk to him?

What's so bad about going to a hospital and getting your meds adjusted?? Things wouldn't be so rough on you in the end and you'd be taken care of while you were there. No worries about what you're going to eat or drink, where to park your car where it's safe, etc., etc. When I went, once I started connecting with some of the people there, I really enjoyed myself. Weird, huh? But I did! No worries and everything was structured just enough to give you a sense of security.

Really, really hope you change your mind and do what's best for you.