If you and T think that it's better to wait, then that sounds pretty much like waiting might be best. Sure, it might be a golden oppurtunity, but what if you get the job, and then cycle and lose it? When do you have to say yes? Can you put off starting the actual job until you feel more stable? Please take care of yourself first, and that doesn't mean putting yourself in the path of the freighttrain, if there is another way of handling this. Hope it goes well