Thread: I need strength
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Old Oct 02, 2009, 03:08 PM
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I would have to say as some others have said. Get the strength from your daughter. Think about if you want your child to grow up in that kind of environment. I don't think you want that for your daughter. The effects will be longlasting.

I have been on both ends of this. Growing up in a home where my parents screamed and yelled constantly. My father beat my mother and my brothers. I love my parents very much regardless of how I grew up. My dad has changed alot. But I am now 35 years old and I have never forgotten those things from my childhood. I know they have affected me and my brothers. They did get divorced after we were all adults. But sometimes I look back, and almost wish they had separated when we were children so my brothers and I would not have to have been put through all that.

On the other end, I also ended up in a very abusive relationship. Was in it for 6 years, way too long. I tried for years to leave, but he stalked and harrased me to the point that it was more scary being away from him, than it was being with him. Where did I finally get the courage? I really can't say. I didn't have children as you do, but I found the courage to finally get out. I thought of how I could no longer go on with my life like that. The hardest thing for me was I knew in order to be totally free and safe, I had to leave my home, my family and everything I loved.

It was hard, but I honestly can't say to this day where the courage came from. But I woke up one morning and said I just can't do this anymore. I left with $3 and the clothes on my back. There had been times in that 6 years I had money saved to leave, but could not find the courage to do it. I left that morning and didn't look back. I moved completely across the country to get away from him, to be safe and start a new life.

I'm so glad I did. :-) You can do that too. Please think of your little girl. Be careful and be safe, I wish you the best of luck. You are worth more than you realize. Don't let someone continue to put you down, degrade you and make you think different. It took me some time to get my confidence back, but I did. You can too.
Thanks for this!
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