where you're around seeing and feeling? you're not aware of the massive influence at the time because you're being so heavily influenced. it's all very foggy. apparently, we were triggered and it just went crazy from there.

i'm new to this. i usually completely check. it's very confusing and hard. it's embarassing. i'm left feeling ashamed.

it's like there was me and another at the same time...both acting. it was total chaos though. it was miserable. now, i feel nothing but shame.

can anyone relate?

thanks,

kd