Kimmy-

I tried talking about that feeling until it excellerated to the point of just brain hash . But to explain to another I said it was like having more than one current real time reality playing at once

or like projecting onto a screen several films running and all are the same vivid current reality and Im the films and also the screen on which they are playing.
So being real running time and being apart as the screen onto which its playing. . .and now im afraid I'll cause you confusion with my relating because theres no good apt vocabulary for thr real unrealness of it. Like I think clinically speaking it would be considered progress to not be able to have one part cancell out another but its also projections and current-time realities that come unedited for content and so can spin into a disturbing disruption.
Hows that?