(((((((((((((((((((((((((TPND)))))))))))))))))))))) I am sorry that so much is going on for you. Please find someone familiar wit ED's to work with you on your eating disorders. They can grab hold so tight and it can take a long time to untangle everything. The voices can be very strong and sound so convincing. But many times your objectivity lessens. I urge you strongly to see someone and get some help. You are a wonderful person. Please try and reach out. You may also want to post in the ED forum for additional support. Good luck and I am here and been there.

BB