I agree with the others. If you can, and I know it might not be realistic, see about getting another Dr. either she's clueless or completely jaded if what you say is accurate. TPND, I agree with depressed Alaskan. You have been at the brunt of so much lousy luck lately, the last thing you need is to start in on yourself. Don't listen to the lies. Maybe you need some adjustment in your meds to get that voice undercontroll. If not, tell it where to go and how to get there
Poor you. If I needed any proof, I now can say that not only is Depression a two-timing shameless liar but he's a bully as well. Stand up to him, and take care of yourself. Please?