It was at a time when I was very very distressed and hated myself more than I normaly do I was shouting in my head for peace and had this yearning to hurt myself... like i said I didnt but it was hard.

Yes I will tell the Dr about it I will have to as I have increased my meds, I am due a med revue next time I go for a script so will talk about it then.

I spose I just feel really silly at the moment ! Thank you all for your fantastic advice its made life more understandable.....

Thank you again