You know what is the most frustrating thind for me? Its that you all have commented on my good qualities... giving of myself, good listener, kindness, sense of humor... whatever they may be. My frustration is that I know I have all those good qualities, but what good are they? One mistake and all my good qualities are erased.

I know you all are probably sick of hearing this but I am in so much pain...missing my ex girl friend. I know that I am the good person inside.

Today is her birthday and I am NOT having a good day. Woke up tearful and am fighting back the tears as I type this as I can't be with her. I wish I could turn back the ahnds of time but I can't. I just want to wake up one day and have this be all a bad dream. Because waking up like this everyday is not worth it.