Dear Dance ~ Is you physical disorder your ED? If you are hungry, can you let yourself eat? I have learned to create a habit of eating by eating in front of the TV! I remember when I could see myself dying because I had not eaten in so long, and it was scary. I wish I could offer you some help with your self injury, but that's the part I don't really fully understand. I know it must be more complicated than just choosing physical pain over emotional pain. I have heard of T's advising SI patients to hold ice to themselves instead of cutting and taper off the habit that way. Does that make sense. I'm not sure if it is good advice or not, but it sounds like it might work. I Care about you and hope to offer you friendship and support, if not the most intelligent of advice ~ billieJ