I am so sorry, Rain. Are you sure you didn't put it somewhere and forget where? Can you remember the last time you had it, and where you were, what you were doing. Maybe you can find it. I did that one time and found my $300 about 6 months later. Sure came in handy! Do you, by any chance, have a poor memory or lose time? If all else fails, you can tell yourself that whoever has it probably needed it more than you did. This, too, will pass. ~ billieJ